hai there.. sehat? hope sehat la kan.. dah lme xburak2 kan asik ckap psl hati je memang buhsan sori k?
amacam? okey tak my new layout? ade mcm kanak2 riang sket kan and lately i think i'm back to my-old-bad-habit dulu, i love cute stuff, esp in pink xkira la ape2 brg pun... hmm i wonder why.. ohh also sempena musim winter ni saje letak snow2 sket baru la rase cm kat overc xdpt gi sne, tgk snow jatuh kt belog pun xpelaa incek chad michelle muray, tolong mainkan salji utk saye buleh?
enuff about that now, i cant wait to back home.. and have holiday until sunday can u believe that? bole plak tgh2 sem kolej bg cuti lme2 hehehe tula benifit kalo study kt private ni syg msu~~~~
td mse kol my along dia ckp csi new york dah ade season baru wowowowow it is awesome u know?
now it is 1.31 am 7th of december and just a moment ago i had a little confession with my roomates, aka my besties started with one simple question it end up as a big secret of athirah akmar kamaruzaman comes to others i'm not a good girl it is true ask any TUALANGian, they will agree i'm a girl who did many unmoral things well, you know as teenagers i want to do many things without thinking any consequences until now i wonder why i become too bad bacause my parents are amazing they already teach me the bad and right things but still, i become bad and they cant be blamed me is the one who you can pointing on me. not anyone else oh boy now i've become too emotional.. the reason why i told my near friend of mine all my past time is to let they know who is me who exactly me and now i feel a little happy as they accept myself as me not other athirah so i know maybe one or two of you will read my post i just want you to know i'm ready if you wont be friends with me anymore i can accept it bcoz who want to share their story with a girl who had bad background? me either. so it is up to you i think a friend should be honest to their friend. hate me? it's up to you but to hate you i'm never to do so. enough.
this is official thank you to all my friends who always be there whenever i need (e/o i dont know whether they can accept me or not) how do i live without you? these are awesome people in the world nuhidayah yahaya rabiatul adawiyah md isa neili abu shuhud nor balqis bukhori adib syarah solihin nor hafizah syofiyan siti maisarah azman nur nabila afifa abd razak khalidah adibah samat
and also the only friend of mine that going through with me in my sadness and joyness
nur syahida zainuddin (although i know you'll never read this post)
bless to ALLAH s.w.t HE gives me a second chance to fix myself and i really relief as i had oppurtunity to do so ;)
tkejut beruk aku sangat2 tkejut ape daaaaaa rosak betul mmg betul org cakap susah nk carik kwn lelaki yg batul2 jujur ko pandai, kacak terletak (wek..susah nk pcaye) tp moral value........ZERO huishhhhhhhhh ko igt org suke ke ko mcm tu? ko rase bes la buat cmtu? bangga la? eh tolonglaaa bwk2 la mgucap (kalo reti lg nk mgucap)? lainla kalo buat pkara baik, boleh la nk bangga ni.............. kalo ko nkorg pandang tinngi kat ko ko kene hormat diri ko tu dulu.. ko tau kan bape juta org dh anggap ko jahat bangga la tu? ko kene la ubah jgn teruskan ape yg ko buat dulu jd la beeter person ko tau tak yg, aku baru rase bes kwn ngn ko tp bile tgk ko cmni..cancel cube ko fikir cmane la satu hari nnti ko ske kat sorg pompuan ni, pompuan yg lgsung xtau psl mse silam ko n ko nk ambek die jd wife ko ko rase family pompuan tu strime ko ke bile tau prangai ko mse mude2 teruk nk mampus? xpyh carik jauh budak darjah satu pun tau konpem ko kene reject trus msuk tong sampah no.aku bukan ckp aku ni baik sgt tp at least, aku xdela xsenonoh cm ko parent aku dh cukup ajar aku mne yg baik, mne yg buruk malu la wei kalo bukan ngn aku pelis malu ngn parent ko, family ko adik bradik ko jiran tetangga ko cikgu2 ko lecturer2 ko dan jgn lupe pd Tuhan. serius, aku mnyesal skg ni. menyesal sbb bg pluang kat ko utk bramah mesra ngn aku MENYESAL. aku just harap satu hari nanti ko tjga dr tidur pastu pikir balik ape yg ko dh buat dan rase malu, malu smpai xboleh nk kuar umah malu wlopun nk kol mntk maaf kat mangsa2 ko. anyway aku patut brterima kasih kat ko sbb bg pgalaman sgt bharga ni kat aku tenkiu ye encik engineer-to-be. igt la what goes aroud comes around. kalo tak kat ko maybe kat anak cucu ko. wallahualam.
apa diharap padi di ladang, entah berbuah entahkan tidak, entah dimakan punai melayang, apa diharap kasihnya orang, entahkan sudi entahkan tidak, entah-entah disambar orang...
hahahahaha kalo la ade org tau rase dihati ni.. nway i'm in really good mood..it is bcoz of him? i dunno. maybe bcoz of hlovate? i dunno. or maybe bcoz now i now why lately my heart beat super duper triple fast? i dunno>>>>
