i never mean to mean

I always being a mean 'friend' to him.

my words, my actions and even my voice, are always rude.

as if rude is my middle name.

we're just like that.

no improvement at all.

even we' re knowing each other since a decade ago,

and studying under a roof.

but when he used rude words to me,

i'm very terrified.

dejavu huh?

or I deserve to be treated like that?