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lagu ni khas ditujukan kpd mr josh a.k.a zayed
i miss u like crazy rite now
hope u doin fine there
n give ur very best service

nothing but the truth

well
today i follow my mum to her school
and on a night b4,
i was struggling which baju kurung shuld i wear,
hahaha
apela, mcm nk g deting je
pdahal...g belengu je pun
then, after mum send my lil bro, we go to highway
and on 7.25 am, we arrive there

i'm not ready for any teaching session
and, i still not good with that
unfortunately
mum told teacher miza,
sk belengu's english teacher
to give me 10 min of teaching during her class
(she teach standard 3)
and guess what happen?
a couple of minutes b4 the exact time,
my nervousness come and nearly kill me
but, thank to my lecturers
for the knowledge that you gave me
it really help me
and for madam nirmala,
ily!!!!!
hahaha
even it only 10 min section,
and i just do some revision since next week is their final examination,
i got priceless experience

then, on 11.30 am
mum's second assistant,
cikgu sadna (also an eng teacher)
told me to take over her standard two class
since she has a torn works to do
and i said
WHAT????
mum just smiled at me
and it gave me some courage
without any delay,
i went to standard 2 class and enhance by its decoration
the class is so clean and what i like the most
the class only has 8 student
yes, 8 ONLY
teaching them was a great experience for me
they are cute, sporting, funny
and they give me such a positive feedback

but to tell the truth
most of the student there
are not good with English
they even don't understand basic word
such as fire,tree,beach,etc
are look difficult to them
from the discussion with mu mum
i agree with her that
most of them are not exposed with English word
and only learn and hear English at school

at msu, i really worried about nowadays students
i afraid if my students are much better than myself
i just think how to deal with them,
what xtvt suitable with this type of student,
and seek for latest info to
but
i never think what style that i should use
to deal with student in rural areas,
which not-so-clever
and not smart as KL student
maybe they even dont know how to read..

so i think,
as a teacher to be
i should start thinking
how to be a good english teacher
to all type of student (smart and not)


yes, maybe for practicum on this next june,
i will teach smart student
who get 24 hour tuisyen,
using BlackBerry Curve 8520 or Samsung i8003 Omnia
as their toys
but for posting,
i have to admit that
the probability to me to teach no so clever student is very high
government nowadays like to send their new teacher
to rural places in Sabah, Sarawak,Pahang and even Kelantan
my student there may having bath in river,
or eat once a day

and i, who want to be under government's eye
have to ready starting from now!!!

(p/s : what the boring post.........am i correct? hmphhhhhhhh)

lalalalala

saje nk tunjuk gamba
berbeza tau muka saye n muke pgantin
jao bezanye
tapi still org salah,
salam saye tp ckp "slamat pgantin baru"
cisss
am i too old?

well,
i'm glad
finally along found her soulmate
and you mr syaharudin
watchout
you took my sis's heart away
make sure you keep it nicely
bcoz if you're not
you cant believe what trouble will come to you
muahahahahahaha



anyway dear along and abang di.
yah ucapkan
selamat pengantin baru
semoga kekal hingga ke akhir hayat
p/s: yah xsaba nk ade anak sedara :p

walimatulurus

with full of honor, love and sign of remembering,

I invite all of you

to together with me

enjoying every single moment

of my beloved sister's wedding ceremony

on 25th of October,

at House of Flower,Lot 3233 Taman Sagumpas 1,

Mentakab, Pahang,MY

Hope with your attendance will bring happiness

to this meaningful ceremony

sweet :)

'why you want merry me?' - 9 years old girl

'bcoz i can kiss whenever i want' - 9 years old boy

i like that dialogue. really like.huu

well i think i'm in love with josh lucas's character in sweet home alabama

he has killer smile with deep dimple dat, err i think it's really killing me

and, in S.H.A, i like his style, the way he wait for his first love, his slumber,and all about him.

it makes me wonder, am i want find my ehem2 like him?

whatever....

the important is, i'm in love with him........muahahahaha

i noe i'm a little bit KETINGGALAN bcoz this movie was published on 2002...

pelik tapi benar

kucing makan roti?

posing 18sx dam-dam bila dh kenyang

kita sume tau kucing makan ikan

kalo tuan si kucing tu kaye,

kucing tu akan mkn freskies,or mende2 sewaktu denganye

okey, si kucing gemuk berbulu lebat di atas ni

sangat la pelik

die makan je ape2 makanan,

lgsung tak memilih

alah bukan sume kucing ke mkn sume bende?

okey, saya tau anda akan ckp mctu

baiklah.

si dam-dam ni

mgejutkan kami sekeluarga bile,

bole mngabeskan seulas durian bersaiz sederhana.

ye, betul.

kucing saye ni makan durian

jadi lps dr tu,

stiap kalo ktorg mkn durian, si dam-dam akan join skali

dan, die pndai mmelih buah yg sedap,

ish2

tak cukup pelik?

si dam-dam kemudiannya membuat abah sayegeleng2 kpale

bila,

die mnjilat krim kek shingga abes...

ish2

okey cuba bygkan,

bile kite potong kek,

pisau yg kite gune tu

akan ade ksan2 krim kek kan?

disitulah si dam-dam ni

mnjilat krim2 trsebut

hgg licin lg bersih, waima lgsung tiada setiti krim pun yg tggl.

mksudnye , saye xperlu lg basuh pisau itu,

sbb dah bersih.

thanks ye dam-dam, makes my life easier

hee

dan, pagi tadi

skali lg dam-dam buat prangai

bila mlahap 2 keping roti,

seperti gambar diatas.

ish2. pelik betul

itulah dia cerita utk hari ni.

saya xtau pulak kalo kucing mmg mkn durian, krim kek dan roti.

sbb satahu saya, mknan trsebut bukan mkanan kucing.

oh ye,

maaflah jika anda rase saya yg lebih2.

but for me, hal ini mmg pelik dan saya patut lebih2.

haa?

wallahualam.

today's special

hai ols

hepi diwali

msti sronok mkan maruku, tosei, briyani, etc

but sori, i dun like

i prefer nasi kandar than ols other indian food

perhaps i dun like their excessive rempah

maybe laa

emmmm

today, like normal day

my family and i tidy up our house

memandangkan seminngu je lg b4 along kawen

yes! SEMINNGU.

so mmg bnyk keje

kemas ni la..angkat pasu ni laa..bubuh manik kat kain ni laa

and ols other things

(asal bnyk sgt gune 'ols' ni?)

hmmm

utk mlm ni

ktorg diberi rehat

kalo rehat tu, msti la tgk tv kan?

so, maybe bcoz of diwali

or today is saturday

tv ade bnyk sgt cerita mnarik utk ditengok

1. 8.30 pm- 8tv, mummy daddy ape ntah (ade edison yg jahat tp nsem sgt)

2. 9 pm - zee tv, om shanti om (datuk SRK blakon)

3. 9.55 pm - ESPN, sunderland vs liverpool

4. 10 pm - tv3, cerekarama (cm best jek)

5. 10 pm - ntv 7, grey's anatomy

haaaaaaa

tu diaaaa

punye la bnyk

xtau yg mne nk tgk

tv kt umh ni ade 2 je

satu ade astro n satu xde

abes la

konfem brebut2

hehehe

nway, hepi deevapali

esp to my lecturers and friends.

straight through my heart

baiklah

saya sbnrnye cuba mengupload gamba follower ke3 saya

tapi malangnye

streamyx kt umah ni

sgt2 la lemmmmmmmmau pagi2

tp xpela...

later k?

okey, straight through my heart

i love this new song

my sis gelak2 je

"yah suke lg lagu BSB?igt suke JBro je"

hahha

nak buat cmne

lgu baru backstreetboys ni cm bes je

1st tyme dga pun dh trus suke

vc pun bole tahan
(sila buka utube anda skrg)

dorg ni tua2 pun still ade kederat nk dancing2

hehehe

xpe...nsem

i likeeeeeee

oh ye dh jao melalut..

thanks ye wani

sbb sudi jd follower saya

alah

bukan bes pun blog saya ni

just about my small tiny world

apepun

thanks ye ;)

your kindness always straight through my heart......

depressed.

first at all, if u're stranger,who not noe me deeply

u might dont understand my situation

thus, dont judge me

i'm not blame you, or anyone else

i'm not mad at you

it is about me, and my broken heart

sumtime, i cant deny dat

i felt very depressed,

ur attitude,

ur expectation,

ur ambition,

ur hope,

ur dream

toward me

are toooooooo high

dat hard to me to get it

nor impossible to me to through it

i noe u noe dat

but still

u push me

every single day

u broke my heart, it's ok

u make my cry, i can accept it

u make me felt down, emm....i still can recover

but,

excessive stress comes from u,

really enough for me

i'm normal, ordinary human

who has soft heart, and pair of eyes dat easy to wet

i cant accept ur scold, anger,disappoint in a same time

i hate crying.

even now, writing about you

makes my tend to cry

i know, u dont understand me

and always underestimate me

y????

am i too bad to you?

am i too stupid?

am i not fix ur expectation?

i'm sorry.

i do a lot of mistakes.

yes i do.

but cant u forget it?

please give me more time and space

for me to show up my true ability

and please

accept my weakness

and believe to my strengthness

sarangheyo.

i'm sorry.

mungkinkah???

pagi2 tadi lepas subuh, henpon gemuk aku berbunyi
trus bdegup kencang
cam ade ape2 je
rupenye dari Miss N, membe kamcing kat tualang
"tira 5/12 ni ada pllan nk wat reunion utk batch kita,
dorg nk buat kat pantai kat kuantan,
bas disediakan, mayb baya rm30"

HUHUHUHU
bunyiknye macam best
dan sebenarnya,
tiba2 tringat dekat .....................
hahahaha
gila gatal

macam-macam

semakin nk dekat wedding along,

semakin banyak dugaan yg datang

memang ALLAH betul nk menduga

ada musuh dlm selimut ni mmg myakitkan

lebih2 lagi org tu family kita gak

pedih utk terima hakikat

pedih gak utk mghadapi org tu

dan juga pedih gak bila igt kita yg tolong dia bila dia susah dulu

dat y post b4 ni ckp pasal org lupa diri

sebab dah nampak depan mata

prangai dorg ni

dulu2

masa susah

kita la pegi tolong

kita la bagi semanagat

kita la dok doa mintak dorg diberi rezeki

so skrg

anak2 dah keje

idup pun dah mula nk mewah

bukan main myombong lagi

kalo stakat tu boleh la terima lg

ini tak tau la kenapa hati tu busuk sgt

pegi fitnah pulak bila dah jadi macamtu,

orang lain, nak2 sedara mara mula la pecaya cakap dia

kan konon alim

huh manusia cam tu

external perfect, internal hancussssss

yg kena tanggung effect nye

kami ni lah

yg mnjadi mangsa

cuba bygkan

org yg kita percaya,

org yg kita harapkan, let say aunty N

tiba2 masam2 muka

pegi umah layan tak layan je

kol lak suara cam taknak kuar

msg taknak reply

tu sume sebab org tula

entah ape yg dia cakap smpai

aunty N mnyampah sgt dgn kami ni

huishhh

yg sian nye, mak la

ibaratnya macam tangan kanan dah putus,

sebab kena potong oleh sedara sendirik

itulah dia

i hate this part,

but

from bottom of my heart

mark my word

once you hurt my mom

i will hurt you back milion trillion times

ALLAH always with innocent people

so WATCH OUT!!

kebahagian vs kekayaan

the german writer, sir jean paul once said

poverty and happiness are like the relationship of a mother and a daughter,

where when a daughter starts to date with a gentleman and falls in love

she slowly will forget her mother...

hehehe punyelah kejam kata2
but, kalo dilihat dari sudut yg lain,
it's true
bukan pasal daughter ke ape
tapi,
kalo kita dah start senang, kaya, pegang duit sendiri,beli macam2
we'll tend to forget anything else
and might hurt people that love us
hmmmmmmmmm
kalo lah macamtu
tak kaya pun takpe
janji orang2 yang kita sayang,
juga sayang kat kita
kita tak rasa seperti di-left out-kan
dan juga tidak meng-left-out-kan orang
kita tak boleh kebahagian
tapi boleh beli kekayaan




yess
i'm very agree that
hapiness is very important than poverty


renung-renungkan lah
but please, tolong jangan terasa
saya cakap just from my own perspektif
mungkin orang lain tak fikir cam saya






kredit perlu diberikan kpd penulis skrip drama korea brtajuk take care of young lady kerana
meng-expose-kan saya dgn kata2 kejam diatas..
hahahaha

kenduri kendara

10 oktober
2-5 ptg open house kt umah
5-6 ptg kenduri letak keje utk wedding along
menu :mak's special, mee bandung

17 oktober
open ouse n majlis arijadi angah
menu: angah special, soto
(kurang nasi impit,bnyk ayam)

25 oktober
kenduri kawen along
menu : gulai kawah daging, ayam pusing
(iye memang betuL2 punye ayam pusing,
mak panggil org tu datang pusing ayam kt umah)
dan juga lauk2 bese yg lain



tengokkk, punyela brsusun akunye schedule.. bukan nk blagak.. tp just nk share xtvt aku cuti 6 minggu ni yg sedey tu, sume ade kene mgene ngn MAKAN sume yg sedap2 lak tu abes laaa konfem berat badan naik ganda2 sobsssssssss

anyway tadi pegi mid tgk wayang cite the privatr life of pippa lee
bessssssssssssssssss sgt
(wlopun ade unsur2 x snonoh sket20
tp for blake lively's fan, alaa yg jd serene dlm gossip girl)
bole la tgk dye blakon filem..
also for keenu reaves' fan..
he so nsem
mgucap pnjg aku tgk kehenseman beliau
ade x lelaki mlayu cam dia??

true story~~~

salam

insyaAllah esok smpai khmis

i will far,far,away from my lappy a.k.a my mr josh

so i x bloging laa...so jgn rindu i k??? hikhik

so i nk cerita panjg ngn u all..

**********************************************************

okey prasan tak,

dua, tiga hari ni bnyk betul kes2 bencana alam,

pastu ramai org mninggal

aku, macam boleh rase ape yg keluarga mangsa tu rase

macam mane bila org yg kita sayang meninggal

macam mane bila org yg kita hormat dah takde

sedih tu, susah nk bygkan..

pepun ALFATIHAH pada mangsa Islam yg trkorban

okey, cerita dibawah ialah mereka yg dekat dengan aku..

cerita betul, yang betul2 belaku..

1. Azif Mohd Nor

meninggal dunia

pada 25 sept 2009,

jumaat, malam

arwah ialah anak kpd sepupu mak,

meninggal dunia stelah moto yg dinaiki

melanggar satu moto dihadapan,yg x psg lmpu

arwah jatuh ke bhagian jln raya,

mnakala pnunggang moto satu lg

jatuh kt arah blukar

tp blum smpt arwah bgun,(mgkn kne hmpap ngn moto)

satu van mrempuh arwah

lalu...apa lg

bekecai la kpala

otak bterabur..

yg sedey tu,

kjadian tu trjadi kira2 5o meter

dr rumah dia..

kalo dah nk jad kan..

hishh

arwah tu, baru je 16

dah hilang lelaki harapan bangsa..

(kalo anda brmata besa, anda bole bce paper diatas,

yg same je isinya sprti tulisan diatas)

......................................................

2. Mohd Adham bin Abd Razak

meninggal dunia pd 5 ogos 2004

setelah koma 5 hari..

yg kes ni, aku sedey sangat

arwah, aku pggl abg am

memang abg sepupu yg baik,

pandai, kacak begaya..

tak bole lupa mcmana smart nye dia

bila nek moto besa

yela..ngn jaket kulit, halmet2 cantik...

hmm skg knangan jela

pd 31 julai, arwah bjalan ngn awek dia, kak sapura

ntah dorg ni gado ke ape

mse mlintas jalan tu

akak tu jalan lintas dulu,

tanpa pndg kiri kanan

yg arwah ni, nmpak ade kereta laju

nk rmpuh akak tu

dia ape lg gi la tahan kete tu

slps tarik akak tu ketepi..

tp malangnya, kete tu x nmpak..

siap langgar arwah lg

laju gila kete tu

depan usm peneng kot..

apehal drive2 laju2??

arwah kena 2 hentakan pd kepala..

satu kt dahi, satu kt bhgian blkg kepala

ape org ckp dekat2 ngn cereberum,

hmpir ngn spinal cord

(thanks kpd kak nelly)

arwah tak mninggal kt situ,

tp bawak gi ospital peneng dulu

kat sana ade msalah len pulak..

sebab mse arwah dh jatuh tu,

purse, kasut kulit, dia..

sume org kebas dulu..

so smpai kt ospital

org tak pcaya dia ni student usm

so xdpt la rawatan khas..

padahal arwah tu dh tenat gila..

kejam kan???

family arwah yg dok kt pahang ni

begegas la pegi peneng..

jauh kan pahang nk gi peneng

sebab mak arwah ni single mother,

dia pegi ngn mak n abah aku

mak ckp, abh drive gile laju..

kalo spatutnye 8 jam, jd 6 jam setengah..

dah smpai sane baru la arwah dpt bilik khas,

bila org ospital tu tau mak arwah ni pengetua..

(kalo anda xTUALANGian anda kenal la mak dia, Hajah Hafazah)

doktor ni dh ckp arwah ni mungkin akan mati otak..

tapi mak jang ni( pangkat utk mak arwah)

tetap nak tunggu dulu

yela mane tau arwah ade bg respon..

xlame lps tu tmbul lg masalah

org ospital ni sibuk suruh mak jang sain borg drma organ

dorg nk hati arwah la,

jantung la, darah la, tulang sum2 la..

agaknya semua yg boleh pakai lg dorg nak..

padahal arwah tu tak konfem lg mninggal..

cuba la rasional sket..

mse tu, tahun 2004 aku kt skolah asrama

hari2 kol umah nk tau pkembangan

mak ngn abh ni

xdpt nk teman mak jang lme2

sbb dorg pun kne keje

so dorg blik phg hari slase

tp makcik2 yg lain dh ade kt sne nk teman mak jang

igt lg..hr khamis, tibe2 mak dtg skolah nk jmput aku

sbb mlm tu nk g peneng naik bas, ngn family2 yg len

bas tu btolak pukul 10.30 mlm

aku ni redy2 la..yela nk mlwat abg am..

tp pkul 8 lebey tu, adik arwah, abg din kol

ckp arwah dah xde..

hati aku ni, hancur luluh..

bukan psl xdpt nk gi peneng

tp psl xdpt jmpe arwah buat kali trakhir..

sobsssss

ktorg ni x jd la pegi

just tunggu kt umah family arwah kt kuantan

aku igt lg, hari tu jumaat

redup je, x panas, x ujan

abg din tu ckp,

pg jumaat tu, lps subuh,

ramaaaaaaaaaaaaaai sgt

student usm dtg solat jenazah

lebih la dr 40 org

aku bila dga..

syukur alhamdulilah

semoga arwah dpt kberkatan..

tgahari 6 ogos 2004,

jenazah arwah smpai kt umah

aku tengok muka arwah..

dah nk biru, tp arwah nmpk tenang

peaceful je, cam dia tidur je..

lps solat jumaat, barulah dia dikebumikan..

hilang dah abg sepupu yg suka mlawak,

yg suka senyum dan yg plg saba mlayan kerenah aku...

pasal awek dia tu,

mmg sedey jd dia..

31 julai- bf xcident, koma sbb nk slmt kn dia

5 ogos- bf mninggal

8 ogos- dia konvo

dga cerita dia nk pentas ambek ijazah

ngn kerusi roda..

yelaa, nk bdiri pun x bole

sbb asyik nangis je..

bygkan ko ambek ijazah, tp bf ko dah xde???

kalo aku kt tmpt kak pura tu..

agknya mcmana laa???

tp skrg,

dga ceritanye kak tu dah kawen

yela smpai bila nk sedey2 kan..

kawen ngn bestfriend arwah gak katenye..

wateva laa

3. Haffizun Isma bin Abdullah

meninggal dunia pada

14 november 1999

okey arwah abg apis ni pun pgkat sepupu ngn aku

orgnye baik, pandai dan suara mgajinye cukup merdu..

memang stail org dulu2 kot,

kalo ank pnadai je, anta gi blaja kt oberc

abg apis ni,mak lang anta kat iran

blja tassuwur rasenye..

mse anta ke iran tu, dia baru belas2

dan balik la ke mesia pada 1999

igt x mesia kena ekonomi mleset tahun 1998?

itu jadik satu faktor gak knepe dia balik...

okey arwah ni minat gak ngn moto besar2 ni

(sme je prngai cm abg am, dorg ni sepupu, remember?)

dia ngn adik dia, abg faisal gi ikut konvoi moto kt johor

dah penat2 tu, dorg bhenti la, nk mkn

bila nk smbg konvoi ni, abg apis ni mntk la nk bwk moto besa

dia nye moto bese je,yela org baru je balik,mne keje lg

ntah cmane org len dah jln

tp dia x start2 lg moto tu..

moto len kot, mybe dia x bese..

bila dh bleh stat, ape lg mrmpit laa

kt satu corner tajam..

ade kete langgar dia dr depan

teruk la xcident tu

sebab bukan satu kete je yg rmpuh dia..

so sendiri byg la cmne keadaan dia...sobs

mujurla ade abg faisal, dia yg kol mak lang cerita abes2

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

sehari b4 abg apis xcident( 13 nov),

aku sefamily baru jegi umah mak lang..

kalo dulu, mmg sronok kalo mak nk g selangor

skg..hmphhhhh

aku ngn ank2 maklang yg len bukan main galak lg

nynyi2, dancing2 lgu industan

haha xbole blaa

tula kngn bes ngn abg lokman, ank bongsu maklang..

eh ni cite len ni....

okeh haritu gak besdey akak kpd abg lokman

a.k.a besdey kak pija

abah gi la beli kek utk dia..present la kononnye

ktorg mkn2, gelak2 mmg happening

lps asar, barulah ktorg blik phg

wlaupun maklang letih pujuk mak suruh stay..

mlm tu lebey kurang pukul 2, dpt kol

yg ckp abg apis dah xde...

ape lg lps subuh, ktorg gi balik umh maklang

so sad

naseb baik paklang ade knalan kt johor,

dorg sah kan kematian, uruskn sume psal jenazah

dr mandi, kapan, n smbahyangkan

so pg ahad tu, pkul 10 kot

jenazah arwah smpai kt ruang tamu umah maklang

yg smalam ktorg joget2 x ingat..

along yg agk rapat ngn arwah gi tengok muka arwah

tp x smpai 2 menet, dia g carik aku sbb nk nangis

along ckp...muka dia...sgt sedey utk diceritakan

cukupla kalo aku just say,

org tpkse jahit muka dia..

sebab mmg ancur abes..

astagfirullah..

akhirnye, aku pun mnangis same ngn along..

ALFATIHAH untuk arwah azif,arwah abang am dan arwah abg apis...

semoga roh mereka dicucuri rahmat

kita yang masih hidup ni,

gunalah setiap ruang, peluang, dan masa yg ada,

untuk mghargai org yg sayang kita,

dan org yg kita sayang

dan, berhati-hatilah di jln raya

korang msti cm aku gak kan,

xnak meninggal dunia dlm keadaan seperti mereka diatas kan?

wallahualam.